I'm so excited but more than that I am proud of myself for sticking to this program and seeing it through. I had urges to quit mid workout or grab a brownie so many times but I didn't. I decided I was done with my sorry excuses and I wanted my bikini body back and I want it NOW!
I'm a true believer in the idea that you can't push someone else to change themselves but that they will change when they're ready. That applies to the body and mind. Sometimes events in life come along to make you ready other times you just wake up one day and look at yourself in the mirror and say, "what the fuck, self." From that day on you dedicate yourself to a different version of you no matter what that means to you. For me this was about me and how I feel about what I see. This isn't about what others think about me. I wasn't happy and I finally got the gall to do something about it.
Enough of that stuff...
Since today was Sunday I had the opportunity to make myself breakfast at home:
1 Red of eggs (topped with paprika and black pepper), 1 Yellow of a 1/2 whole wheat English muffin and 1 Purple of a 1/2 banana. Note: I did not put anything on the English muffin. I used it to enjoy the yolk of the egg once I broke it.
I was famished today... About an hour later I had a snack:
I love my fruit and yogurt!
1 Red of yogurt and 1/2 Purple of strawberries. My kiddo also enjoyed this snack :)
Another bit O' snack-age before errands:
1 Green of spinach, tomato and 1 Orange of black olives. Topped this little sucker with red wine vinegar.
Lunch was fun..
1 Red of sliced ham and turkey filled with 1 Green of spinach, peeled carrot pieces and topped with, you guess it, mustard! (I also had 1 Blue of pistachios) Do this. You know you want to. Be like Nike and just do it.
My afternoon snack was very satisfying.
I left the peanut butter container so you could see my ginormous coffee mug. That's how I roll.
1 Yellow of whole wheat English muffin, 1/2 Purple of sliced apple with 2 Tsp of peanut butter and COFFEE.
My day was full of a cranky toddler and errands. I was already tired by 3pm and I hadn't worked out yet.
I will admit to a mistake I made today. I whipped up a batch of banana muffins for my little man. What toddler doesn't appreciate those?! Usually I fill the muffin tins up and scrape the remainder of the mixing bowl with a spatula and eat it. Well, I prepared his muffins and scraped the bowl and ate off the spatula... and then the light bulb went on.
I was chastising myself, "Oh no! Oh no! No, no, no!" My child was looking at me like I lost my mind. Haha, I probably had at the moment. So what did I do? I chugged an unreasonable amount of water justifying that it would flush the sugar out of my system. Who knows if that helped but I do know that I ate something extremely healthy for dinner. So there's that.
Dinner:
2 greens of sautéed spinach in Coconut oil and lemon juice with 1 Red of chicken breast topped with HOT SAUUUUUCE.
I highly recommend this..... Just so good.
I had an exhausting weekend. With the less sleep and busy days I feel like I ran marathons both days. I just wanted to curl up into a ball and sleep tonight but I hadn't done my workout yet.
So I did it.
Tonight was the Cardio Fix. I was going to double up and had zero energy to do so. Make no mistake, my entire body hurts from exhaustion and working out. I could use about 4 ibprophen.
Anyhoo...
Day 19 is finally over. 2 more stinkin' days to go! WOO!
Someone call me a waaa-mbulance.
I need a stretcher.
